It’s been about a year since I’ve talked about my mental health issues, since those issues stopped me dead in my tracks and psychologically blocked me from functioning in every day life in many ways. I recently started writing again, and revealed that I had started going to therapy. It’s been about a year now since I’ve started and I’d like to share what I’ve learned about myself. Hopefully, this will help those going through something similar either by helping them understand how they feel and think, inspiring them to seek help, or simply feeling less alone in their struggles. I’ll be posting articles like this from time to time about the various issues I have so this will be the first of several. Without further ado, these are my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder tendencies.
since I could hold my head up high.
In this world of content information and frequent updates, it’s hard not to get caught up in it. That is to say it’s hard not to be influenced by information at a constant rate. This has both good and bad repercussions. For example, it’s impossible not to learn something everyday. We are constantly learning from news that’s posted everywhere online, from Facebook and Twitter to RSS feeds and the websites we visit regularly. It’s impossible to be kept in the dark about anything, at least for very long. However, this also means that we can never be wrong. Continue reading “The Influx of Information”
Here’s something I was thinking about right now.
I write for an independent video game journalism site called Middle of Nowhere Gaming and most of the news stories I’ve been writing recently have been announcements of rereleases of Japanese role playing games. Grandia II, Tales of Symphonia, Odin Sphere, Final Fantasy IV: The After Years, all these games are being re-released in the future. There’s also newer JRPGs coming out in the near future, such as Bravely Second, Fire Emblem Fates, Star Ocean 5: Integrity and Faithlessness, and Tales of Zestiria. Needless to say, I’ve had JRPGs on the mind and I just bought Tales of Vesperia on the 360 right now. I’ve honestly not heard this much about JRPGs since the early 2000s, except for that time when Microsoft kept publishing JRPGs on the 360 to appeal to Japanese audiences. Remember that? They had Blue Dragon and Lost Odyssey. Also, Infinite Undiscovery and The Last Remnant were 360 exclusives.
I’ve been looking for ways to relax myself as of late as I’ve been stressed out from taking on more than I could handle. I found YouTube videos on what’s called ASMR. I’m not entirely sure how I came upon them. Part of me thinks I heard them mentioned while watching a Halefail Q&A video and another part of me thought I heard it slightly before that. Either way, I’ve just known about this for about two to three weeks now. ASMR videos are videos that feature someone making various noises quietly, either with their hands, with various objects, and/or by talking softly or whispering, in order to relax the viewer. Usually this results at some point with getting chills down the back of your neck or elsewhere. Visual stimulators are also used to enhance the audio and sometimes, videos will have people roleplay as stylists, hairdressers or doctors.
Recently, I’ve noticed that I’ve been replaying fighting games that I wasn’t originally big on and finding new characters that I like to play as, thereby making the game feel fresh to me. The first game was Tekken Tag Tournament. I got the HD version not too long ago and was disappointed that everything was unlocked from the start for me. What else is there to do when there’s no online mode? However, at random, I picked Kunimitsu and started really enjoying the game as I learned her move set and found it to my liking. I kept playing through Arcade mode over and over just because I enjoyed playing as Kunimitsu and I wanted to play more as her and get better with her fighting style.
Recently, I’ve been wanting to play a Mortal Kombat game since Mortal Kombat X just came out but I don’t have any way to play it. So I’ve been playing Mortal Kombat 3, a game that, again, I wasn’t hugely into back in the day but have found renewed interest in thanks to finding a new character I really liked that I didn’t play before. This time, it was Cyrax and I’ve been getting better and better with him. The other night I beat the game three times with relative ease! I’ve even learn a couple of exploits that lets me beat Motaro and Shao Kahn without dying…much. When I do it right, I beat them no problem but sometimes I screw up so that’s why I keep dying and why I need to practice.
I just thought I would blog about this occurrence because it just goes to show that if a game is really good, it doesn’t matter how old it is. There’s a chance that you can still find something new in it that’ll make it brand new all over again. Do you have any games that you have played before that you found something new about it to like after you revisit it? Tell me in the comments. Peace and Love, Gamers and Players! Colorwind out.
Hey everyone. This is a quick blog post to discuss a new position I recently took. I am now an associate writer for Middle of Nowhere Gaming or MONG! Some of you may have heard of them, as they have a pretty prominent presence. Right now, I’m doing news stories for them but in the future, I’m hoping to do more, if time is allotted. So please check out middleofnowheregaming.com and check out my work as well as all of the other writers and video producers’ work. Peace and Love, Gamers and Players! Colorwind out.
The other day, my mother was talking to me about a kid at school she talked to. She’s a security guard at a middle school that’s mostly filled with delinquents. This kid in particular however likes my mother because she listens to him and as such, confides in her. He told her how he wants to go to college but that the kids in his school make fun of him for it. So he gets into trouble like the other kids in order to keep appearances. He described it to living a double life. It reminded me about me when I was young and how I used to give in to the pressures of others. Continue reading “You Like Crap?”
I’m going to try something different. I’ve noticed that a lot of reviews of video games don’t go into enough detail as to why the game in question is fun or enjoyable. They talk about how the game excels or fails in certain aspect but not into great lengths. There’s rarely examples or personal experiences of the positive or negatives. I’ve also noticed that I have made the same mistakes in my reviews and I want to improve so I’m going to try something new. Continue reading “My Borderlands Review Experiment”